Happy Easter

i cant feel anything but grief and ive been running on empty these past 10 weeks
i gave you everything and you never even noticed me struggling
im not sure if i ever mattered
if i will ever matter
if there are even any answers to the questions that i have been asking
love never made sense to me
and life was never as confusing as it was last year
i never had the heart to tell me friends that im fucking dead
that i just cant bring myself to make pointless fucking conversation anymore
if i love anything its the quiet that the noise brings
an the ringing in my ears is the only thing that tell me that im alive
you see i stay in most nights and look out at the city lights
and realize that im losing my fucking mind.