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i came apart today as i drowned the past in the pouring rain
i miss myself and i miss my best friend
lately it seems like the music is starting to fade
and all the voices of all the kids i used to know are just distant memories of summers gone by
maybe im getting to old for this
all the times i spent staring out of broken windows onto broken city street reminds me that i used to be able to feel something
but i dont feel anything
when i run out of words to write and there are no fault lines left for me to fight i just want to hear my best friends voice

An Actual Update

Dont hold your breath, haha.

I have 2 days off work! Can i get a HELL YEAH!!

Today im going to Kilcoole to mix the Young Wolves Demo. we might have a song up tonight or tomorrow!

I get to see Bane tomorrow which im super stoked about!!

Life. haha where to begin.
Shit isnt great. It hasnt been great for a while now. For some reason i have stopped leaving the house unless its for work or practice. I keep having such weird dreams and im really not sure what to think about them. i know everyone goes through shit like this from time to time so will leave it at that.

Im going on tour in less than a month and im so stoked to clear my head and see some amazing place. We are hitting Germany, Holland, Scotland, England, France, Italy and maybe a couple more countries! Im seriously so excited! Our friends in Locked in are gonna show us all the sights in Italy!

The Forced Out Demo is up check it out!!

4 OF MY FAVOURITE DUDES PLAYING SWEET TUNES!!

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laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I have not had any time to update this because of my crazy work schedule. But my best friend told me to update it so thats what im doing haha.

I got back from tour on like the 25th of march. I had a blast. It was a great time with the best dudes! i didnt sleep in the van nearly as much as i expected to.

Since i have got back i have had like 2 days off work. It has been rough and im not off again until tuesday. but i get to see Bane 2 days in a row so that will rule!

im going to watch the never ending story now.

Happy Easter

i cant feel anything but grief and ive been running on empty these past 10 weeks
i gave you everything and you never even noticed me struggling
im not sure if i ever mattered
if i will ever matter
if there are even any answers to the questions that i have been asking
love never made sense to me
and life was never as confusing as it was last year
i never had the heart to tell me friends that im fucking dead
that i just cant bring myself to make pointless fucking conversation anymore
if i love anything its the quiet that the noise brings
an the ringing in my ears is the only thing that tell me that im alive
you see i stay in most nights and look out at the city lights
and realize that im losing my fucking mind.