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“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.”

Maybe This Is It

Ive been dreaming about you running in and out of my life
you are like the passing years always changing but somehow remaining constant
i have realised that home is not a certain place, its something that you strive to make and id make a home with you if i could
you are the mystery in my life
the joy i take in simple things
i cant help but feel sad sometimes
but your voice always brings a smile to my face
i remember when you said "love is a funny thing so dont be afraid to laugh"
and sometimes i do
everyone makes mistakes
thats just life i guess
but we learn from them
and i learned a lesson from you
its spring in the city and it has been raining for weeks
but i can smell the summer in the air
i remember when you said "Ive been dreaming about you running in and out of my life"
and i remember thinking that maybe this is it

Blue

The rain falls on this city just like it has so many times before
And while damned souls fill crowded rooms i search for something worth fighting for
i whisper to myself quietly in the darkness "she was never worth this, nothing will ever be worth these fucking nights"
and i cant help but think that maybe this time im fucking right
that maybe im forcing myself to feel this way
because im so afraid of not being afraid
but night falls on this city and the beggers are begging not to be saved
and any hope that the hopeless had seemed to slowly fad
with the sinking of the sun into the ocean
and even though i have no reason left to fight
i will keep fighting away those sleepless nights
to hear a story told by a girl with the bluest eyes

Sometimes

Sometimes this girl is nice to me. Sometimes.

Heart

She still rules!

I'm Still Grieving

Honesty
You have, You have,
the darkest eyes i have ever seen.
Judging me, Judging me.
Your words, Your words,
They have been laying heavy on my heart since the day you left.
The lights went out in the city tonight,
While i was searching for pictures of you and me.
But there are none.
Those nights don't exist for us.
I think its time that we talked about this world
and how somethings they just don't work,
Like honesty, like honesty.

Grief
Love, Love never made sense to me and life was never as confusing as it was last year.
I just never had the heart to tell my friends that im fucking dead and that i can't bring myself to, Make pointless conversations anymore.
If i love anything its the quiet that this noise brings.
(I still miss the) Friends.
That were never friends to me at all.
The only things that mattered to them were agendas of their own.
The life i used to lead is now a broken thing that is adding fire to my grief.
I can't feel anything.
Anything but grief
and i've been running on empty these past 10 weeks
and yes it matters that she lives that life, she lives the life of a whore.
While a town of sheep dressed as wolves sit at her door.
You deserve each other.
There will be no rest for the wicked.

Title fight.

AWESOME!

The best times were had.
One of my favourite shows ever.
It was class to see the place so packed.
Cheers to everyone that got down early to check out my new band.

Gajb got some Title Fight videos.

Swifty

Im into the new hair.
She is still the best girl.

The Best Girl

Smallville Season 9

Im a couple of episodes in and it has been class.

Season 7 and 8 were both incredible and this has the potential of being the best season so far.

Stoked.

Young Wolves 7"

It has been ordered.
Release show in april i hope.

Here are the lyrics.

VOICES
Don't let anyone ever tell you
That you're not good enough
Don't be afraid to take a chance
Sometimes in life
All you'll get is one shot
One shot of not ending up alone

All the voices of all the kids I used to know
Are now nothing more than summers gone by
Summers gone by
Maybe I'm getting too old for this
Maybe I'm getting too old for this
Maybe this girl and this late night car ride
Is the only reason that I'm still alive

And when I run out of words to write
When there's no fault lines for me to find
All I want to do
Just want to hear my best friend's voice
She's telling me that everything is going to be just fine
I'm going to be alright

After all these years
Nothing has changed

Well when I run out of words to write
When there's no fault lines for me to find
All I want to do
Just want to hear my best friend's voice
She's telling me that everything is going to be just fine
I'm going to be alright


LAST YEAR
I have changed that much is clear
I'm just not the same man
I was last year
I held down the words until they changed me
And I became a bitter shell
Of my former self
Because I love

The little things that we have left
Love is dead

At night I can feel the bitterness deep inside
At night I can feel the bitterness deep inside
Scratching at the feeling that I try
So hard to hide

The little things that we have left
Love is dead


LOSS
What can I say
That you havn't heard already
A thousand times today
I'm so sorry for your loss

The world can be
Such a dark place sometimes
And death can be an ugly thing
I won't pretend that everything is going to be OK
Because I'm sure that it will

But life will go on
The world will keep turning and turning
But you will never forget
And life will go on
The world will keep burning and burning
I'm so sorry for your loss


MEMORIES
In times of war
When all you have left is
Yourself to rely on
And the rain becomes the most constant thing in your life

As I walk through this bed of leaves
that blankets these city streets
I listen to the sound of a town at war

No I won't let go
Of all the memories that I still hold
Of all the nights when you left me
Waiting in the cold

Well these roads go on
These roads go on and on
But I only go on for so long

As I sit here in silence
I can't help but feel so alone
Our hands always used to fit so well
And we always had the words to fill
To fill these voids

Eight years we stood here
As time passed us,
It passed us by
What were you thinking
When you said yes?
Could you really spend the rest of you life?

No we won't let go
Of all the memories that we still hold
Of all the nights when you left us
Waiting in the cold

How could you not remember
The nights we spent together?

No we won't let go.


Listen to Taylor Swift.

Night.

Coke

The best drink ever after Fanta Pineapple?? Perhaps.
Everyone knows i love a glass or two of coke from time to time.
But most people most likely dont know that i have been off the stuff for about a month. I decided to cut down on my sugar intake and my old friend had to go.

I have the next 5 days off work. Hell yeahhh

Rice Krispies

Is there a better cereal??
I doubt it.

Im seriously living on them at the moment.

Transit

You need to listen to this band.

The last thing you said to me was this "I wouldn't trade you for the world"
(I couldn't trade you for the world)
Because in the moment I knew how it truly felt to be loved unconditionally
When you held me on the back porch underneath the setting sun
You are the torch that lights the way through the darkest times in my life
Like coals that would burn beneath my feet to keep me moving on
Will you sing me to sleep the way you did when I was young?
When you held me on the back porch underneath the setting sun
I got time to kill but I wont waste a second 'cause I've grown tired of
Waiting and wasting away
Right now it seems all I know and love is gone
Except my beat up guitar and unfinished songs
At least I finished this one
(The last thing you said to me was this "I wouldn't trade you for the world")

www.myspace.com/transitma

I Try

8am as i crawl towards the city
Reliving this 9 to 5 nightmare i have been living for 10 years now
You are the anchor that holds me to these streets on nights when i would give anything to just float away
On winter mornings when my hands are so cold i find it so hard to walk out of that front door
But ive got rent to pay and nothing but time to waste
Sometimes i feel homesick for a home that doesnt belong to me anymore
And sometimes i wonder if my key still fits that door
This year i promise to stop running down dead end streets
This year i promise to be myself
This year i promise not to care so much
This year i promise to try...

Taylor Swift

<333

Im back

Finally got my laptop fixed.

Back in business.
It has been a weird few months.
I dont really give a shit about anything anymore.
There is no point to any of this.
I am happy with who i am.
Can you honestly say the same?
You have my number.