We all have this idea in our heads of who we are meant to be
But what if we cant fit into the roles our parents want us to play
I always proved to be a disappointment or so im told
The only kid that never gave a shit about fitting in
I often wonder at the end of days
Will i sit back and look at my mistakes with the deepest regret.
I was always held down by the endless ticking clock
And all the things that i wanted that i could never have.
I tore out the years
Like pages from a book
I didn't care to read
I never thought that i could miss you half as much as i do
But these night mean nothing without you
I sacrificed self respect
The small bit i had left and reached out to you
And blew the only chance i had at feeling alive
This has to be more than words
More than some fucked up kids in a dead in town
more than some high points and some low lifes
more than a life full of what ifs and could have beens
Blog about my birthday when i get home.